cop outs

So today I was thinking about commitment. I guess I should explain myself. I've always been the kind of person, when I'm interested in something, to jump headfirst in, not stopping to ask questions. I trust my gut a LOT (and it's actually served me well and I reward it a lot with good food lol). I'm still, however, confused by(and it's one of my weaknesses to be blind to) people who say they want to do something but don't follow through. Today a coworker of mine who wants to write was shown (by moi...as I've probably mentioned..I'm a research GEEK..to the point that I become obsessed with something I'm interested in, which is not healthy but can apparently be good for art and design) an opportunity that, if he got it, would basically expose him to a LOT of people and possibly give him a big "in". He did the same thing he always does...a cloud of excuses filtered over him the second I showed it to him. That kind of behavior is just crazy bizarre to me because I bleed for the things I want to do. This may sound freakish, but the first thing I did last month after paying my month-end bills was to buy three sketchbooks. I know I go through them in a week or a week and a half, so I anticipate and try to never be without one. I once met a lady in the business who said that her niece wanted to act and sing, but couldn't be bothered to even try to audition. I have to ask, then, what is the joy of the craft if a person cannot even enjoy the journey (whether they succeed or fail?). I do not know where my journey will lead, but one of my wishes is to never be in a position where I cannot obtain things with which to sketch. One of my best remembered college teachers once told us (it was an Advanced Design class) that when you design something, the idea, in its final stage (with the input of everyone) often becomes a watered down version of the initial concept. I've seen and heard of this for myself and on one level, it can be very disappointing and many a person has said "yeah, it didn't work out the way we wanted...what you see is a big ole mess in comparison...". But he said it is for this reason that in your initial stages you have to BE BOLD in your ideas. Maybe 80 percent of it will be lost in translation, but something of that 20 percent will still be there. It is the semblance of your voice and your point of view, no matter how small, IS important. I have hung on to that forever, and I totally believe in it. Anyways, I stole (yep, I said it) this from a friend who blogs who also "stole" (aka 'borrowed') some heads for some studies. So I've been doing that, along with my pilot project, along with two sketchbooks full of drawings from a really great reference that another friend of mine gave us via his website for Jan 1st. Enjoy :)